Stand Firm.

Everybody has opinions. Some well-thought out, and some that could use a little more work to complete them. For example, political views is a good place to start. Some people know exactly where they stand relative to the political spectrum, while others may need to do a little more research on current issues and how they feel about them. But what if I asked you this, have you ever been so sure about something, that nothing could ever change your opinion? Now your answer may vary from mine, but in my experience I have certainly had those types of opinions. In fact, I'd go ahead and say that I have multiple opinions that no one, regardless of what they had to say, could change the way I felt about someone or something.
Life has a funny way of exposing those opinions and feelings at what seems like the most inopportune of times. It seems that everyday we are faced with choices that either strengthen or weaken those feelings or beliefs. It is so critical to be able to recognize the times that we are being tested, and in those times, we must be at our personal best. At any given time an opportunity may reveal itself and just as quickly as it appears, it may escape our very grasp never to be heard of again. Because of this, we must never become comfortable, we must be on our heels in this world. Not just for ourselves, but for our brothers and sisters who also, are being tested in similar ways. Iron sharpens iron, and so we too must sharpen each other so that we may not become dull and ineffective. Finding ways to sharpen ourselves so that we are constantly at our finest is a must.
I recently found myself in a situation I had been in a few times before. A situation that I absolutely love to be in. Where my hopes and fantasies let loose and I become lost in them, only to be rudely awakened by reality's call. It seems that every time I am in the presence of this hope, my expectations are crushed again and again. But again and again I find myself falling for the same traits, smiles, laughs and talk of love. I know that things are the way they are, and I'm not fussing about the cards I've been handed, but the wonder and curiosity of the simple question, "What would it look like if I was here?" This thought quietly looms in the back of my mind. When the miles increase between me and the thought, the thought slowly quiets itself, but never quite goes away. It survives from memories, and distant images, that create the illusion of her presence, but I am quickly reminded of the inconvenient reality. This thought, this feeling, this high opinion, is one that will never change. It will never rot, it will never be altered, since the day this feeling appeared, it has never changed. So why would it change now?

Living In A Shallow Society

Have you ever logged onto Facebook and seen hundreds of your friends have all changed their profile pictures on the same day? Of course you have! Those kinds of days fall into the same time frames every year it seems. Whether its, Prom, Sadie Hawkins, or even graduation, but sometimes in a blue moon everyone will change their picture to make a statement. Most recently the "=" sign to support Gay rights. Be warned, this is not an anti-gay post by any means, but rather a post about the masses and how our society reacts to large events. Think back onto some of those big facebook events when you changed your profile picture in order to make a statement. The only other comparable event I can think of immediately was, you guessed it, KONY 2012. looking back onto the whole Kony event, it seems almost laughable. Laughable that SO many people jumped onto the Kony bandwagon and were so ready to drop everything they were doing to fight this man. But their first thought was to change their profile picture. I suppose its good to let people know you are aware of the current problems in the world, but to a person like me, it means nothing. Changing a profile picture does absolutely nothing but tells people where you stand on a subject, and even deeper, it makes you feel better about yourself. It drives me crazy when people think that changing a picture actually does something. See here is a major flaw in our generation, social media has made our generation believe that changing something as small as a picture for a few days or weeks actually will make a difference. We hide behind our screen and think that that is doing something. We couldn't be more off! We are such a shallow generation! We think that simply changing something on a meaningless social media profile will change the world! But we're missing what's right in front of us! GO OUT AND DO SOMETHING! Facebook is not the answer. Flat out and dry. Great, you believe in something and support it, now, go out and find what needs to be done to change the world. Don't post a status, send a tweet, or change a picture and think that that is enough. Our generation seems so content with posting a status and thinking that is enough. Not only that, they want to be recognized for it! They expect to be praised and recognized for their boldness! Quite frankly, I believe that the lust for "Likes" on facebook has an effect on what people choose to stand for. What this entire entry is about is, BE BOLD. Don't be afraid to take a stand on an issue, FIND evidence to support it, and SUPPORT it! Don't fizzle out after a week of fighting the system. Don't be afraid to be challenged on what you are speaking up for, instead be prepared and educated on what you're fighting for! Let facebook be a tool for awareness, not for political agenda. Facebook is skin deep, its shallow, its a Visage that people use to come off as deep and complex people. Don't be a status quo kind of person. Stand for something, and find a way to be a genuine human being in this mediocre world. Find a way to stand above the rest, and find a way to make a differenc

It's been a long time runnin'

Have you ever lost track of who you were? Ever looked back on your life and reminisced on the days where you could say you were proud of who you were? I say this mainly because lately I've been overwhelmed with disappointment. Not disappointment with the cards that life has dealt me, but disappointment in the way I think and consequently the choices I make. I truly feel caught in a deep, dark, and cold rut. I can see the light and the exit, and I know how to get there, but I keep hesitating. Holding back from the reward, which is simply freedom. I feel imprisoned by the bondage of pleasurable desire, one that only a woman can quench. At face value it seems shallow, and that's because, it's just the tip of the iceberg. But I feel like the lust is simply a scapegoat for something deeper.
I want her to be in my life. I want her here with me to tell me she loves me,
The problem is, I don't know who she is yet. I wish I was ready for her to walk into my life, but the truth is, I'm not ready. I have a long way to go. I want that intimacy, and love for a woman. But I desire for a Christ centered relationship. But, I don't feel like I could possibly be strong enough to lead in such a way. Not yet. I look up to so many incredible men of God and I hope one day I could be like them but in my own way. My prayer is that this desire to be better will produce results. I want to be a man of God, I want to be deserving of a woman that The Lord himself picked out for me. She's out there. Somewhere. And it's my job right now, to better myself so that one day I could be deserving of her love.